Monday, August 18, 2008

My personal issues that involve my race

It is very early in the morning & I've decided to post something. Issac Hayes & Bernie Mac have passed on & they are both in an upcoming movie together. How odd! A dam broke in the Grand Canyon which is crazy! Hundreds of people are scrambling to get out of there. Whew! I'm sure glad I'm not a nature buff like that mormon prick I just worked for. I wish he would have taken a hike there instead of Mt. Shasta. Only kidding. I wouldn't wish fear & anxiety on anyone not even his uptight ass.


All of this stress that I've been feeling has finally been relieved. I have come to the realization that I don't want to ride the corporate tidal wave. This job had already misled & fired my superior in the three months I had been there. She was ridiculed behind her back & to her face. The stress that she was under had started to weigh heavily on me. It is horrible when you see the demise of your co-worker right before your very eyes. Especially when you are being groomed to take her place. Or so it seemed.


My prick ass boss had me doing a lot more for less money than they paid her! I came to the conclusion that I could put up with this weasel or squirm my way out of a tight spot. You see, all of these high gas prices literally fucked me. My division moved 17 miles further than my 14 mile daily commute. Now, I was going to travel 62 miles round trip to get to work. There is too much deceit that involved my position & move to relay here. Like Barbara Heinrich's book, I was being Nickel & Dimed. It was simply not worth my time & resources to continue my employment. Unlike Barbara Heinrich, I am not a white woman of moderate or great wealth. I am a lower middle class black woman with the barest of means.


I feel the need to use this space as my blog on racism & injustice that is unceasing to this very day. It's nice to watch black commentators on cable news who seem to be above most instances of racial disparity. It was great to hear the incredulous comments on how "articulate" Barack Obama is. As if! Is there any wonder that blacks & hispanics are failing in this education "system"?


My son's school is "diversified" meaning there are a multitude of races in the student body. The instructors are either asian or white. Where is the diversity in the staff? His asian teacher really did not relate well to him. She said he was in danger of failing after barely the first month of school. I got the feeling that she really did not care for him very much. That was confirmed when she told my husband something during a parent/teacher conference. She told him that it was almost like my son did not have a brain. She said he seemed to never think. Who would say something like that if that's what they really thought? What kind of professional is this?


It seems to me that since I am black there are people who disregard me as a person. They are rude, insensitive, & almost barbaric in their attitude towards me. Teachers have made comments to me simply because they felt they could. If only they knew just how literate I am, they would choose their words carefully. I know how to express my thoughts eloquently & I love the pen & paper. It has not been difficult for me to voice my concerns in writing when it is needed. Hence, this blog. Racism & blocked opportunities should be shared with all of humanity. IssueBlack has dealt with yet another issue. Until next time!

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